GAAAAAHHHHHH Mk.VI: The Return of the Son of the 50ft GAAAH that struck back!

[rovingjack]

The world is really small.  I stumbled upon that video two days ago (I wasn't browsing for Steampunk con videos either.  I think that video was suggested because I watch another costume maker from Down Under by the name of Ms.Twisted

the owlcchemist. I've wondered for a while if she's the same miss twisted from Aus. that I was tumblr friends with back in my early days of my steampunk explorations and blogging 'the lady of the mechanism'

[J. Wilhelm]

The world is really small.  I stumbled upon that video two days ago (I wasn't browsing for Steampunk con videos either.  I think that video was suggested because I watch another costume maker from Down Under by the name of Ms.Twisted

the owlcchemist. I've wondered for a while if she's the same miss twisted from Aus. that I was tumblr friends with back in my early days of my steampunk explorations and blogging 'the lady of the mechanism'

Yep. She's the very same one.

[Hez]

I do love when the world is small enough to feel connected.

[Xenos]

This gets political, and touches on the HP franchise, and I apologize, but I'm a trans woman, living in today's world. That being said, I will spoiler tag it for those who'd rather not read such things:

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Today, I found out that I am:
A JKR sockpuppet
A transphobe
and
A bot

Imagine my surprise, since I'm very much a trans woman who is incredibly outspoken against JKR, and I'm pretty sure I'm organic, as I've had ribs broken at protests by bean bag rounds. If I were a bot, I think my titanium skeleton would hold up better against such abuse.

All because of the recent UK news (bloody rubbish, that), and pointing out that we WARNED people she would use her money to fund lawsuits to make that a reality.

Someone jumped on saying "There's no ethical consumption under capitalism, so just let people enjoy things, it's not THEIR fault she's a monster!"

Well, no, it isn't the end consumer's fault that she is. True. But that's not what that phrase means. Did you need Blood Libel and Broomsticks to live?

No.

Do you need certain electronic devices to survive in today's world, and those devices have parts that are made with... questionably sourced materials?

Yes.

THAT is what "no ethical consumption" means. You reduce harm where you can. Buy sustainable. Reduce, reuse, recycle, all that.

We warned people buying the product would actively cause harm. It now has actively caused harm.

Granted, I'm still trying to work out how me calling them out made me a transphobe, when I'm a trans woman and was standing up for trans rights...

Internet idiots, my friends. Internet idiots.

Either way, just one more place that being trans (in this instance, a trans woman, specifically) is incredibly dangerous.

To all my lovelies in the UK, please, be safe. You're seen, you're loved. We'll get through this together.

And, on a personal note, [Explicative Deleted] Queen B*tch TERF with the Green Man's Rusty Rake. The RUSTY rake, mind you.

[J. Wilhelm]

This gets political, and touches on the HP franchise, and I apologize, but I'm a trans woman, living in today's world. That being said, I will spoiler tag it for those who'd rather not read such things:SNIP

Absolutely power corrupts absolutely.

When we get severe blowback from giving gigantic amounts of money to people who had a single or two brilliant ideas, but were intrinsically deeply flawed human beings, with the IQ of a potted plant.

I see it everywhere now, and it may finish us altogether as a species.

[Xenos]

This gets political, and touches on the HP franchise, and I apologize, but I'm a trans woman, living in today's world. That being said, I will spoiler tag it for those who'd rather not read such things:SNIP

Absolutely power corrupts absolutely.

When we get severe blowback from giving gigantic amounts of money to people who had a single or two brilliant ideas, but were intrinsically deeply flawed human beings, with the IQ of a potted plant.

I see it everywhere now, and it may finish us altogether as a species.

NGL, I for one am ready for the giant meteor/supervolcano/whatever other instant, absolute 100% extinction level event is. Humanity had a good run, but we're too cruel and stupid. /shrug

Maybe I'm just too old and jaded, Iunno. 

[J. Wilhelm]

This gets political, and touches on the HP franchise, and I apologize, but I'm a trans woman, living in today's world. That being said, I will spoiler tag it for those who'd rather not read such things:SNIP

Absolutely power corrupts absolutely.

When we get severe blowback from giving gigantic amounts of money to people who had a single or two brilliant ideas, but were intrinsically deeply flawed human beings, with the IQ of a potted plant.

I see it everywhere now, and it may finish us altogether as a species.

NGL, I for one am ready for the giant meteor/supervolcano/whatever other instant, absolute 100% extinction level event is. Humanity had a good run, but we're too cruel and stupid. /shrug

Maybe I'm just too old and jaded, Iunno. 

No, I feel the same way.  We're not worthy of another 2 million years of evolution.  Better to give it to the cetaceans, or octopi or crows.

But being in this situation wasn't in my cards at my age. If you had told me how the 2010s/20s turned out around the year 2k , I would have told you to stop smoking whatever and get some help. I feel I'm living in a bad Sci-Fi movie like the ones that make you want to walk out of the theater.

[HAC]

Its snowing......

[von Corax]

Its snowing......

Gaah!

[Xenos]

So. I was part of a writer's group.

Was actually in for being published in an upcoming anthology.

CW: Lot of uh... People being not nice about neurodivergent people, and then those same people wanting to play the Trauma Olympics: ShowHide

Today, I find out that writer's group is... Not so friendly for neurodivergents, AND if that's not enough, they're planning on using AI in the anthology for generating art before each submission.

The admin, when I messaged them about the way they exploded on me in chat, basically told me "yeah so what I've got a billion different traumas and I don't act like a whiney little bitch about it, put on your big girl pants, do you want to compare trauma and see who has it worse, 'sperg?"

*Best Stephen K. Amos Impression* Now. Now.

First off, trauma isn't the Olympics, suffering isn't a contest. I think we can all agree on that. What I've been through doesn't negate what you've been through, and what you've been through doesn't negate what I've been through. But JOHNNY...

I may have went on a bit of a tear. Just a teensy weensy itty bitty tiny lil' bit. I'm not going to list out my $#*7 here, cause you lot don't deserve that, but I will say this: You lot can see my nation's flag is set to Sudan. I didn't pick that to be cheeky. Or silly. Or because "Oh, the Queen's Sudan." I picked that because I grew up in Darfur. Yes, that Darfur (no joke, the one time I opened up to a trained professional, and actually went into detail, my next few sessions were canceled as they tried to find me a new therapist, because that one literally walked out and quit the next day--I wish to the gods I were joking).

And that was my opening salvo. I was not kind. I was not gentle. I  was not friendly in any way. I'm not the least bit sorry, she came at me over my autism. I had already planned on leaving because of the AI, but "'sperg?"

N-n-n-n-nah, you're catchin' these hands.

Needless to say, I have left the group and pulled my submission.

So hey, yeah. Go me.

Anyway, that's been my day. Getting to relive trauma IN FULL (sure, I didn't HAVE to, so I guess that's technically on me?), getting talked down to because I'm neurodivergent, getting treat like sh*t, and in general, finding out that I should never, ever, ever let my mask down again.

Oh, wait, I may be fucking up by letting it down here. But if after nearly 15 years you lot haven't figured out I'm on the spectrum, then I guess I'm far better at masking than I thought. So that's a YOU thing! (I kid, I kid, I love you lot, and trust you not to ya know... treat me like dirt because I'm ND)

EDIT:

YEAH WOW: okay admin wrote me at 6:18 basically saying

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"Hey yeah talked it over with the rest of the group, Trump's right people like you are unproductive and should be MADE productive."

So uh... Send me to a "Focus Camp" I guess?

I'm just gonna go get plastered now.

[Sir Henry]

Unmasking yourself here should not be a problem - we seem to be mostly in a similar, leaky boat. And, to a much lesser degree than for yourself, I have found that tightening the mask has been needed in the last few months.
My working assumption is that as life gets harder for everyone, people start punching down, taking it out on people lower down the power ladder than themselves. If our leaders can do it, why shouldn't we?

Anyway, stay strong (you must be to have got this far), pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again.
We're rooting for you.



oh yes, my gaaah...

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"A big thumb's up for Stanley knives!"
said the nurse
"At least until the bleeding stops.
Or until you see the surgeon on Thursday, whichever is sooner."

At least I only nicked the tendon and can still move and feel it.


The nurse asked how I did it. "I was putting some brass inlays in some shelves."
"You must be good at DIY to be doing inlays!"
Holds up bleeding mess of a thumb... 

[Xenos]

Snip

First off, thank you for the kind words. I... Really need them. Won't lie. It's uh... Anyway, yeah.

Second off...

YEGADS MATE, BE BLOODY CAREFUL!

Also best wishes for a speedy recovery on that because YIKES ON BLOODY BIKES!

[Hez]

To quote a plaque from my mother-in-law's kitchen.

Friend you are welcome here
Be at your ease...
You don't have to thank us
or laugh at our jokes.
Sit deep and come often
you're one of the folks.

[Sorontar]

Indeed. You are not divergent from reality. You are reality. You are part of our reality. You are also part of everyone-else's reality.

and steampunk

Sorontar

[rovingjack]

I went outside for a walk late afternoon may 1st. went to bed early morning. woke mid afternoon. thought I had a scratch on the back of my thigh.by midnight it had been sensitive every time I used the toilet or otherwise rubbed the spot so I used a mirror and discovered an imbedded deer tick (black legged tick). Frantic and shaky hands with tweezers broke it leaving the head deeply in my skin. a trip to the ER and 2 hours wait they pulled it out. 12 hours since feeling the injury, about 30 hours after I likely picked it up. They gave me a dose of doxycycline and sent me home to watch for signs of Lyme.

got home, washed bedding and clothes, showered, checked myself 3 times. made a sandwich. tried to calm the panic attacks. noticed a splotch on last bite and then the rest of the bag of bread i'd bought 3 days ago was riddled with mold.

can't sleep, shaking, panic attacks.

[LukeHogbin]

Thanks to a recent seizure (I have atypical epilepsy) my brain is still a bit mushy and my memory foggy and now I don't remember if I'd already received my new bank card and just misplaced it somewhere or if I hadn't received it yet. I turned my entire place around and hadn't found anything. Checked my e-mails and all, same. Zilch. I think I'm going mad.

[Sir Henry]

I went outside for a walk late afternoon may 1st. went to bed early morning. woke mid afternoon. thought I had a scratch on the back of my thigh.by midnight it had been sensitive every time I used the toilet or otherwise rubbed the spot so I used a mirror and discovered an imbedded deer tick (black legged tick). Frantic and shaky hands with tweezers broke it leaving the head deeply in my skin. a trip to the ER and 2 hours wait they pulled it out. 12 hours since feeling the injury, about 30 hours after I likely picked it up. They gave me a dose of doxycycline and sent me home to watch for signs of Lyme.

got home, washed bedding and clothes, showered, checked myself 3 times. made a sandwich. tried to calm the panic attacks. noticed a splotch on last bite and then the rest of the bag of bread i'd bought 3 days ago was riddled with mold.

can't sleep, shaking, panic attacks.

I hope that things have calmed down and that you're recovering. And sleeping again.

"There's something to be said
for mouldy bread."
Hieronymus Bosch

[rovingjack]

I hope that things have calmed down and that you're recovering. And sleeping again.

"There's something to be said
for mouldy bread."
Hieronymus Bosch

rain has made apparent a faulty roof repair last year via leak that pooled on, in and under the heater.

landlord used my clean laundry to mop out the heater.
meanwhile his buddy ate my emotional support candy supply without asking or telling me. just found it gone.

and on the way back from counciling my car dash lit up the tire problem light.

[LukeHogbin]

Thanks to a recent seizure (I have atypical epilepsy) my brain is still a bit mushy and my memory foggy and now I don't remember if I'd already received my new bank card and just misplaced it somewhere or if I hadn't received it yet. I turned my entire place around and hadn't found anything. Checked my e-mails and all, same. Zilch. I think I'm going mad.

Happy update, I wasn't going mad, I actually hadn't received it yet. It was in the mailbox yday. (tuesday)

[dman762000]

Rovingjack
I live in an area with a lot of different kinds of ticks (the ozarks). There are lots of kinds of tick-borne illnesses. My father came down with one called ehrlichia chaffeensis. It almost killed him and he never was the same since then. Having said that, catching an illness is actually quite rare. 90% of the time all it will be is an itchy bite for a few days. Try not to stress about it. Lyme disease is basically curable these days, even the one dad had is curable. The only reason he had lasting effects is because of his age. I've had many ticks and never came down with anything. So don't worry about it, you'll be fine, no reason to panic. Now bread mold, eeek, I hate finding that, that way, gross, your ears are probably gonna fall off because of that stuff. I'm sorry you're having such a stressful day, it'll get better, I promise.

[Xenos]

I hate ticks and any other parasitic blood sucking evil critter. Hope everyone is well. Burn all ticks, burn all mosquitos.

They're evil beasties. Just... Evil, evil beasties.

[J. Wilhelm]

I hate ticks and any other parasitic blood sucking evil critter. Hope everyone is well. Burn all ticks, burn all mosquitos.

They're evil beasties. Just... Evil, evil beasties.

Speaking of burning, I was going to suggest the "Vietnam Method" of using a hot cigarette butt to burn the tick's rump so it'd release its bite, and then using the ashes to stop the bleeding... (yeah, I know I watch too many movies)

[rovingjack]

It's a phobia, overlapping PTSD. they don't listen to reason. lol.
I also live in a region where official numbers state that about 50% of deer ticks are carriers.
it was latched for 20-30 hours and official stats suggest 24-36 hours is the transmission window.
and I know 3 people with Neuro damage caused by Lyme that was missed for years and went untreated, and 5 more people for whom Lyme was the inciting incident for auto-immune disorder.

plus seeing the back half of a parasite wiggling deeper under you skin is a horrifying thing, even if they were not a disease vector for conditions that we can only detect 60% of when they run both test which they rarely do, often stopping with the test with a detection rate of 34-46% detection rate from samples taken directly from the EM rash.

but I've mostly calmed down. though the destruction of my laundry and the tire problem still make me wanna burn it all down. I'd very much like the gremlins to stop spitting in my mouth while I sleep. lol

[von Corax]

I hate ticks and any other parasitic blood sucking evil critter. Hope everyone is well. Burn all ticks, burn all mosquitos.

They're evil beasties. Just... Evil, evil beasties.

Speaking of burning, I was going to suggest the "Vietnam Method" of using a hot cigarette butt to burn the tick's rump so it'd release its bite, and then using the ashes to stop the bleeding... (yeah, I know I watch too many movies)

Don't do that. You want to scrape the tick off so it doesn't vomit into your bloodstream.

[rovingjack]

I hate ticks and any other parasitic blood sucking evil critter. Hope everyone is well. Burn all ticks, burn all mosquitos.

They're evil beasties. Just... Evil, evil beasties.

Speaking of burning, I was going to suggest the "Vietnam Method" of using a hot cigarette butt to burn the tick's rump so it'd release its bite, and then using the ashes to stop the bleeding... (yeah, I know I watch too many movies)

Don't do that. You want to scrape the tick off so it doesn't vomit into your bloodstream.

lil  was burrowed so far in my skin that less than a 1/3 of it was out and it wiggled deeper when trying the get it. ripped off what I could the ER dug the head out, leaving what looks like a piercing hole in the center of a blackened area with red edges and a pink welt the size of a mandarin orange.

it actually looked like someone had put a cig out on me.